I met marcella.....

Soooo today i went to my first doctors appointment!! Before i even got out of bed i kept repeating good thoughts..." you feel fine...you feel great...you don't feel sick...walking to the shower will not make you throw up..."....! And i will say...positive thinking really helps! It didn't help as much as i would have liked...but it did help!! 

Im having major issues eating in the morning. Everything sounds gross. So today my breakfast of choice was cold raw carrots. and ice water. Now that might be a normal breakfast for lets say...MY MOM...who people have respectfully named  "cabbage patch" because she eats so healthy ALL the time.  But for this little prego girl....carrots for breakfast are out of the ordinary.

Anyway...i found myself at Dr. Leslie's office at 8:45 sharp, ready to be a sponge for information! I filled out my paper work and sat as quietly as possible. My crunching of the carrots could be heard 2 states away. But hey...at least i was eating!

The doctors door swings open and a cute little MARCELLA says.. "BRIANNE!!!!!!" And i will tell you...hearing my full name being called takes me right back to the pediatrician days. Everyone calls me Bri...so hearing the full name sends chills down my spine. She walked me right to the scale....( i weigh 4 pounds more than i did 2 months ago)...i think?? Im not really sure how much i weighed. But im guesstimating 4 lbs. Then she asked me to pee in a cup...AGAIN...but this time write my name on it with a sharpie! I have peed like 45 times so far at the doctors office....(that might be an exaggeration)!

She took me in the office...gave me a whole bunch of information...and sent me on my way! she was really informative...really nice...really relatable and i enjoyed her a lot! It was a great doctors visit! Marcella and i are going to be friends i've decided! i left there happy and HUNGRY! Carrots weren't doin the trick.....! 

I decided a poppy seed muffin was todays craving. And after i indulged in an extra large muffin...i realized that poppy seed muffins show up as a drug when you get your blood drawn!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA...oh ya...it will be on the front page of our local paper...prego mom is doin opiates! I have to go get a blood test this week...i might wait until friday :) 

All and all today has been a great day!! My hubby is being a top notch guy...and treating me like prego royalty...and at this moment i feel GREAT!! 

Goodbye sleep...hello nausea....

Im not sure if ANY of you of heard of pregnant girls feeling sick....?? "feeling sick" is an understatement by a loooong shot. And whoever created the term "morning sickness" is a lucky woman...(or stupid man) in my mind. I have yet to experience morning sickness. I have something called ALL DAY SICKNESS. And it means just what it says. Feeling like you're going to die all day long. God bless the woman who only feels sick in the morning. Truly you are lucky! 

I have yet to actually throw up. Its just constant nausea ALL DAY LONG. But its the kind that food doesn't help. My stomach isn't empty. And i dont have anything toxic to throw up. Its just my hormone's raging out of control! 

Now i will say, i feel so fortunate to be sick. Supposedly feeling sick means your baby is growing. And I feel so blessed that things are progressing how they should. If it means being sick for a few short months in exchange for a healthy baby..ILL TAKE IT!! But it the mean time...let me complain...it makes me feel better....

I have major issues with feeling like crud. Im sure everybody does. But im the ultimate baby. I HATE feeling nauseas. HATE IT. I was car sick as a little kid and thats where the nausea started. Anyway....no food helps this. Im a super healthy eater. I LOVE veggies and fruits and good pastas and salads! But baby mcclerkin does not like these yummy foods. Baby Clerk likes mcdonalds happy meals....and donuts...and taco bell. Let me tell you...NONE of those foods were on the "congrats that your pregnant...here's what you should eat" form....! In fact...all of those foods are BIG no no's! But i will say....for those who are pregnant or will become pregnant....eat what sounds good! Because if it doesnt sound good....you're in for a world of hurt sister!

Sooo the one thing that helps being sick all day, is SLEEP. Good ol sleep. But no....not in this lifetime. Im normally a solid 12 hour sleeper. I could probably go longer if my husband didnt jump on the bed trying to wake me up. But not anymore. After about 6 hours im wide awake. And its usually at 4 in the morning. Have you ever been up at 4 am?? Its a horrible time of the day. No one should be up then. Im just getting my good sleep at 4. But not anymore people...now my biological clock is preparing me for no sleep. Because in 7 short months...i wont be sleeping. Ill have baby waking me up to eat or be changed or wake up for the day...who knows! So sleeping doesnt work with my nausea! Because i cant sleep!! And i cant take tylenol pm because im prego..but let me tell you...if i could take tylenol pm...this would be a completely different blog! 

I think i have had enough complaining for a night. Thank you for listening..or i guess reading!! More positive posts tomorrow!! I have my first doctors appointment tomorrow and they are letting me know whats in store the next 7 months.....i truly am so excited!

THE OFFICIAL PEE TEST

SOOOOO after all my excitement of my at home prego test...i went to the doctor the next day!!! I have to say that i have the BEST doctor. Actually the BEST nurse practitioner EVER. I was scared to death of the doctor until i was 19. And after 19 years of trying to get use to my pediatrician...he kicked me out when i turned 19. He told me it was time to go to a "big girl" doctor. This was a devastating day for me. I didnt even like my pediatrician. But now that he kicked me out...i questioned my hate for him. Maybe i didnt hate him.  Maybe if he gave me one more chance in his office he would let me stay FOREVER! And then me AND my future kids could just go to the doctor together! You know...one stop shop kinda thing! But no. i was kicked out for good. Had i known that i was about to meet the worlds greatest nurse practitioner i wouldnt have freaked out so bad!!!

Ok...sooo i entered my favorite doctors office....and told the receptionist i thought i was pregnant and i needed to take a test! She had me fill out my current insurance, blah blah blah...next thing i know my FAVORITE N.P.(nurse practitioner) and all the girls in the office are jumping up and down at the thought of me being pregnant! Ok..who wouldnt LOVE going there?! They treat you like you are the first girl to ever get pregnant. Anyway....i tinkled on the stick again...and was placed in a room to wait for the results. 

My favorite N.P. came in and let me know the test was negative. But that they would leave the stick in for a few more minutes! All i kept thinking to myself was....." i really think im pregnant...i dont know how this could be." Then here came another nurse with a POSITIVE pee test and they let me know i was going to be a mom! Of course i said 15 times...Are you sure? NO really though are you sure? Are you sure thats what the test means....! The poor nurses kept reassuring me that they do this for a living...they know what they're talking about! 

Aaaaaand the rest is history!! I scheduled my upcoming appointments and i left. And i left that doctors office as a mom. It was beautiful.